Sidi you taught us that the highest rank of Awliya are the Siddiqs, can you advise on how to operationally be one of them; as I am afraid of an eternity where I am not one of the closest to Him.¶
I've been struggling with lust for the past 8 years. I repent after sinning, and pray that Allah relieves me of my problem everyday. I know the answer is Taqwa, but all I have been asking for is Taqwa and strength to overcome my addiction. I can't help feeling distant and abandoned. Please advise.¶
For years I've tried praying tahajjud but I always bum out after a few months. I cannot sleep early because my husband sleeps late and I cannot fall back asleep after Fajr. I have daily responsibilities with my husband and children and cannot take naps during the day. This exhaustion eventually affects my health and my marriage. Is there a sustainable balance for tahajjud that doesn't lead to burnout?¶